I can't say I've really had much reason to get up at all most mornings in the last month.
There are days that I would rather just fade away, turn to dust and end up blowing in the wind.
Isn't that where the goddamned answers are?
Answers to what?
This month has been the hardest in the last 20-odd years...
I know the why, where and how. No one else really needs to, although some do.
I was once the most positive person on the planet... well, after a million or so others that also claim that eminent title.
I'm still much more positive than some. Have to give myself at least a little credit there but fuck, sometimes when the world comes crashing down and you realize things that you thought were dealt with are in fact completely mind-fucking you... it gets to a point where you have to reflect.
Reflection, however, only opens up a mirror so what happens when you look in the dislike what you see?
Further down the freaking spiral!
Spirals are the worst form of descent! A deep chasm is just that, DEEP, it has rugged sides and usually the only way down is straight down. It's harsh, but it's quick.
Spirals on the other hand tend to be slow and steady and if you're on the way down then they are so much more painful than a freefall drop.
Mirror, mirror, on the wall.... SHUT UP!!!
Things are so much more difficult at the moment. Concentrating is one of tasks that becomes somewhat hard when the voices in your head are waaaaaay too busy doing their own thing!
Well, I'm out!
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